Chaos and Unity

I believe in a form of free anarchist and chaotic existence. I don't mean politics I mean life in general. Many believe in creationism, an afterlife, or some sort of neither and both at the same time. I find it much more fun and much more pleasurable to believe in chaos. Keep in mind that a very large portion of my belief is to not ask "why" because it ruins it; it ruins the fun (what else is life worth, after all?)

So there are particles, atoms, atomic bonds, matter, chains of matter, amino acids, cells, organs, beings, rules to physics, rules of gravity of space of heat of etc and of so on and so on. Avoiding the question why makes this very fun; lets just go with the answer of "Why not?!" I can bash my head against the wall all night long going into depth about any of these and looking into why and in the end I will just have a big bruise on my head. The idea that something has to exist for a reason is the idea of someone trying to ruin the essence and enjoyment of life.

Another answer to some of the why or why for questions I hear is just "because it does." Why for are there laws of motion/thermodynamics/boredom because there is and because it works. What do I gain from searching for why fors and how comes? I'll end up with a headache from drinking myself due to my depression. I find it best to really judge how discoveries affect the self and happiness. Am I happier knowing that an cow jumping off on a roof will splat on the ground? Does it matter to me to know that solar radiation refracts off our atmosphere and positively charges the ionosphere? As a scholar; yes, but as an individual and my happiness and beliefs, no.

I guess the biggest argument I come across when I discuss this is that I am ignoring the truth and turning a blind eye to fact; well, nothing is factual and nothing is real and nothing is true. This is the one thing I would try to convey to anybody. To put it bluntly; this happen for a reason and billions have searched for the answer; perhaps some have found the answer. Is it crucial to search for the answer and know or should it be more important to find an answer and just grok acceptance and peace?

So what am I getting at? I've said a hell of a lot of nothing. Things rotate around each other, people exist, thoughts happen, reality is what it is yet its nothing at all. Tomorrow a comet moving at hundreds and thousands of miles per hour will crash into our planet and annihilate all life and what then? Did you do everything you wanted to and really live for the now or was it all in fear of what is to come? Don't fear, anticipate, prepare, but don't let it rule you. Chaos is the answer; chaos is the salvation. Let the wind blow your hair, may the tides push you as they may. Just do for the sake of doing not for the sake of altruism, religion, society, family, or anything; do what moves you, do what shapes you or shape what you do; whatever, just do. Be free truly free...