Reality, purpose, and the whole importance of it all is something that has been on my mind lately. Being what I consider an "educated fool" I seem to take what I know and weave it with what I feel for some uniquely odd results. I am a science major so my chief studies focus on how the world works, what makes up the world, and what is likely to happen to said world. My beliefs walk the line of spiritual non-existence, existence, and unity.
Ideally if my belief structure had to be classified it would be one that is almost wholly Buddhist with some serious pieces of Taoism. To the uninitiated this means I'm all about oneness, togetherness, and the firm stance that we're all the same - literally the same. Yet I also straddle a line that all of this is wholly real yet none of it is actually in existence. Of course the floor I'm on is a floor and I am sitting in a chair that is atop the floor. These are the rules of this reality but it truly is a floor and yet something more and nothing, too.
Usually people look at me kind of strange when I say things like that. I always pose the question "How do you know it's there; because you can feel the wood grains, the coolness of the floor, the hardness of its form, and each imperfection?" Perception is a form of reality but there is so much more to it. I usually ask if they can sense the insensible? The billions of atoms within even the smallest portion of wood floor - I can't sense all these individual pieces at all or tell that they are moving at all but the atomic structure is there, right? We know this because we are told that it is there but how can one be sure?
I'm being silly and really am detracting from the subject. I'm not renouncing physics and chemistry I'm merely stating that what we sense doesn't necessarily mean anything at all especially in terms of reality. So back to the subject. I firmly believe that we're all the same but I tend to take my knowledge and fuse it with my beliefs. Not only do I believe that all life is tied together I also believe that all objects and all matter is precisely the same. Each individual atom makes up the glass table this computer sits on similar to how each atom makes up my person. They are different in the way in which you could quantify an atom. Two atoms side by side are different atoms but they are the same so what exactly is the difference?
Ahh! Yes the difference; the difference is the space in which the atoms occupy. Lets use an example of my human body. I am me and all four limbs are me but what makes it all me? Connective tissues made of... atoms. Atoms bound together - yet this bonding is not really important in the scale of the atom itself. They all exist and wriggle separately yet to the same beat. So in essence, I am not me because I am really nothing. I am an innumerable pile of atoms buzzing around trying to balance out this body. So yeah, I am absolutely an entity and a being. I am real and I am here but... I'm not anything, either.
I also stated that we're all the same, too. When I'm in a crowded bar (yes, I am this guy) I will usually feel out the room and look at what makes up the physical structure of the bar but also look at the interactions of each person both to me and separate from me. Its all a very intricate dance of these atoms just wriggling with no rhyme or reason. The reason is nothing and the purpose is chaos. I sit at the bar with my drink and feel the energy in the room. I'm the girl with the first date; I'm the man playing darts with his buddies; I'm the bartender just waiting to get out to shoot up some smack; I'm the spider solitary and waiting in the vent; I'm also the vent, the stool, the bar, and the window.
Now... when I first mentioned purpose I could mean many things. Divine purpose, cosmic purpose, individual purpose - but what I really mean is the absence of purpose. I really dislike the ideal of a purpose. A purpose means there is a plan and design to this all but that just is not me whatsoever. We weren't put here for a purpose and there is no purpose to achieve. No greater power or lesser evil pulling at our strings to do certain things. We are men, we are women, we are animals, and we are nothing. Let us all drink to the coexistence and unity of our struggle through this wriggling existence.
Sometimes I try to be inspiring especially when it comes to purpose. You see as I said purpose implies a reason to exist and an inherent design. I really find it funny and pretty selfish to assume there is a design and there is a purpose at all! Wholly I believe that we all have it in each of us to be brilliant but I think too many peoples beliefs hold them back. If you believe you are here for a reason - built to achieve - than you will feel crushed and disheartened when you fail. Why think of a purpose when we all have what it takes to be absolutely everything. I know I know this is contradictory to what I said earlier. Not only are we absolutely nothing - just pieces put together in random coincidence - we also are everything. With random sets of matter also comes with the absolute that matter is. Be brilliant in our vast greatness and combined unity with the universe. We are the children of the cosmos so our purpose is to push the greatness of existence to the boundaries! Each of us owes it to each other (remember: the same beings) to push each other as high up as we can go.
I'm going to end it here. Sort of climactic I suppose but that is where I like to stop. Think about it. Get back to me with your thoughts....
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